lies, and fairytales.

i kind of wonder when i'll catch on. wait..that's not right. i kind of wonder when i'll let go. let go of the lies, the shady parts, and the unworthiness.
i miss feeling good about things. i miss feeling attached and whole.


when it comes to the weather, im a simple girl. i like sun in the summer...but not too hot. i like coldness in the winter..but not too rainy. i like wanting more of you..but not feeling like i have nothing. what happened to love?

i talked to you again, and it was nice. we connect as if we are two of only one person. we mimic each other, and know the paths in which the other came. i feel relieved talking with you. my guard comes down and words spill out, everything spills, without hesitation from any part of my being. i wish i could find the you in me. i want to confide in myself, tell dreams of lust and wandering. but that piece is broken along with many others. you bring light and hope to some, but im beginning to think the others could be beyond repair.

you tell me to leave, and get out. but i can't. you accept that answer because you've been here. you know that either way i will hurt, deep.



i hate that i feel like a burden around the person i call home. i hate being put on the back burner, and being made less than i am. this game won't go on much longer, but please keep in mind you are losing with each wrong move. a good girl, one that loves you in crazy amounts. she's here..and you're pushing her away. to live a life of vanity will get you nowhere. to live a life of love will get you anywhere and give you everything. open up, breathe in, and remember who has been there to clean your cuts.

if life gives you lemons, love them. don't make them into something they're not.