a fine disease.

have you ever cared for something so deeply, that the words surrounding your desire are unattainable? not in reach of the human tongue, for something so precious has no words. my heart has been outlined in a deep red. something so beautiful and wreckless.
lives completed and destroyed, by the simplicity of three words.

i hate to call it love, because it's more than that. a raw, delicate, and vibrant way of seeing the world. i can't tell you how i feel, or what makes my mind revolve the way it does. but i can tell you that my chest is full of a feeling i wish to consume for the rest of my days. a perfect disease, im forever yours.



today was really good. long, in some sense. and a bit tiring, but overall it's been another sunny day. i've finally found a way to appreciate the dew on my car in the morning. i guess driving to starbucks for an americano does that to you...kinda helps you forget about the underlying negatives.
i hope you're aware that you have me by the heart strings.
days don't feel bad, when i have you.
life is easy, and my smile is bright.

this hope hasn't arrived in a nicely wrapped box. it's been a rough journey for me, appreciating each lesson learned definitely makes it worthwhile though. im happy you have finally made some realization of your feelings towards me, but im not happy it took my bitching to get you there. i hope your lies show truth, and my doubts prove false.

i feel perfect. alive, perplexed, and full. im in love with you, and that is happiness.