pumpkin eater.

i looked back at the day and said; "what did you do to benefit anyone?"
nothing, absolutely nothing. tomorrow i will.


i french tipped my toes today, with a thin silver line.
i wrote a quick note to my cousin, made a sandwich for nick, and broke down a few boxes before i recycled them and continued to eat my cereal.
things aren't good right now. im not the person i used to be..and i wonder how i got here. i keep asking for more, and i've started realizing that i don't give enough.

im so ready to be more than myself.
i was going to bitch about the useless effect i have on things around me, but you know, im done being harsh. i promised a good friend that i'd start fresh tomorrow...but i'll start fresh now, just to avoid another personal lecture.
the real bone i'd like to pick, is with you.
you're getting pretty hard to be around, i'd like to be more than a 8 hour saturday shift to you.


...i felt them. and they were SO perfect. fluttering everywhere inside of me, they were real too. they lasted only awhile, i think other bellies needed a spark of happiness just like mine did. after they had gone i was still in a new place. not mad because they flew away, but anxious for more and delighted they chose my body to dance in for awhile.

for the first time in a long time, i realized i was more than what you make me.


"if a man lives a pure life, nothing can destroy him."
i'd like you to know that im done. you know what i mean? im not done with "this" or "us"....im just done with you. if this makes sense to you, you're the type of guy i want. smart, so make the change. if this doesn't make sense to you, halloween is really going to suck.