fool's gold.

maybe im a fool for believing everything the night sky tells me. sometimes when making decisions gets hard, that's what i do. rely on the unreliable.
it's not completely my fault though. once you've jumped on a shooting star, the world is spinning too damn fast around you to find some stable ground. i thought climbing on board would take me somewhere new and exciting, because that's how it's suppose to be. life, you know? new exciting fun bright fresh and brilliant.

you can't make the sour parts sweet. and it's a waste of time trying to force that smile. what you see is what you get, don't tip toe around the negative to create a prettier picture.

as of this moment, i can't sort out the good and bad. i want so much of the things i can't have, im stubborn, confused, and could easily see myself crying over the decision of fruit loops or cocoa puffs. at the same time..i've figured a lot out about myself. im independent, happy, generous, creative, and know way too much about how to incorporate cuss words in an appropriate manner. maybe im a mess in every sense of the word, maybe im a bitch when it comes to a few sensitive subjects, but maybe im exactly what you need? maybe we could share that bowl of fruit loops?

i guess the only way out of this situation is to enjoy the ride.
whether or not my decision was right, i made it.
i'll take a few pictures, smell the roses, and bring you back a shitty souvenier.