security.

it scares me to finally understand what brings you happiness, and peace of mind. things that will mean nothing years from now, things that immature minds hold as expectations. you make me question your place in my life. are you here to appreciate what we have and what we've been through, or are you here to skate around the truth in order to maintain a little power and stability?

i wish you could feel the way i love you, because i know you don't.


life is starting to catch up with me, finally. it feels so good to be productive and comfortable sitting at the end of the day. i always doubt myself, and im starting to realize that doubting is the only thing to set me back. i have to jump, run, sacrafice, and get motivated. which has undoubtedly been a relationship of mine that continues to strain. im gaining mileage though, and im here to do work.
sometimes you have to figure out a way around your stressers. make a list, what CAN you control? your reactions, your ambitions, your ways of approaching problems. what CAN'T you control? people's feelings, the weather, how fast your breakfast cooks.
control what you can, and accept what you can not. life is as simple as you make it.

if i could have any super power, it wouldn't be to fly or read minds.
i can use a plane, and i could care less what the perverts around me are thinking at any given moment.
if i could have a super power, i would want the ability to pick up any given talent at any moment in time. i only say this because being able to play the guitar right now would be really nice. until then, i guess i'll learn to strum the hard way..